Saturday, March 14, 2015

# Butterflies In My Spring Garden Heart

Well, I wrote this about in the afternoon. There were so many things that crawling in my mind. People come and go but yeah I didn't give a damn. I love to meet people out there and the best part when you know who was really really really meaningful and have sincerity values in your life. Eventually. I don't fucking care about your sad stories if it contents with lies or judge mental statements or kick me away! This passing times, I'd gone through emotional situations and few obstacles in my life.... and some of them need to be settle down as soon as possible. Whatever it is, I'm glad because I'm feeling grateful to God that I don't need to stick any longer with those nonsense people. God is A MOST LOVER, PROTECTOR & MERCIFUL. I know I'm safe in His protection even though I'm a sinner.


Hmmm.... well.. He is my special friend. Just wanna say he is so meaningful to me. Deep in my purest heart. A different man and polite when speak to me. Of course I grant a respectful as a woman from him. Always there for me (well he is far away) & makes me remember to my God. That's all. (Thank Allah)



Tuesday, December 16, 2014

Saturday, October 25, 2014

# What it is

Do you know that you are the one who giving me back to breathe?
The warmness of you surrounding my veins...
I already forgot what is called love...
Every second...
You there.
You exist.
I feel alive.

I love your smile...
I love the way you are..
I crawl from this sombre life...
From my deep lonely heart...
You colored my life....

I'm stuck when I see you...
I'm sorry that I am not like some women out there...
I'm sorry to not say something forbidden...
I'm sorry to not show what supposed to be...
from the deep of my heart...
I dont know what it is...
I only know that I want to take care of you...

You.... afraid of losing...
Its okay... 
I understand...
I take my steps behind slowly....
Then, you dont need to hurt and feel the burdens anymore...
soon...

Why we met?
God knows.
But, if He wills.....

                        (Amy Yahaya)

Sunday, July 6, 2014

# Let Thee Down


shalt I deny
the hatred in my eyes 
wilt dissolves thee like acid
hopelessnes
thou run away, run away
where to go
but my eyes are looking
thou burnt in sorrow 
yes, I shalt leave 

                             (Amy Yahaya)

Friday, June 20, 2014

# Abang Takut?

credit to migonline

Now, I'll post about a Malay film. A horror Malay film. Yesterday, I went to GCS, Queensbay looking some films I wanted to watch then I'd chose PENGANTIN MALAM (Night Bride/Revenge of The Bride). I didn't know why because honestly I rarely watch Malay films at cinema but only in front of TV. So sorry. This time I forced myself maybe I'd influenced by some actors's promotion poster at their own instagram or trailer or whatever.

Pengantin Malam's casts are Nora Danish, Farid Kamil and Nina Iskandar. I dont want to write plot in here I just want to give simple reviews about this film as a 'nobody' audience. Overall, this film is not bad. Yes, it can gives you some heart shocked. Hahaha! Nice playing by Nora Danish that played a woman who suffered because she's hunted until exorcised by a revenge woman ghost acted by Nina Iskandar that related with the husband. Farid Kamil's acting is okay. The makeup looks good and the action on exorcism scene makes me said "uuuuuuuu, ok thats scary!" and the tagline I like is "Abang takut?" (Are you scared, dear?) But, I was thinking why a ghost walks like a human? Spoiled! Actually, I watched it alone. Imagined that there're nobody on my side when the thriller crawling to my skin. I need to "Okay, I can control my hormones. No big deal!" Hahaha ;p Well, my advice is try watch it compared to other dumbass horror Malay films before. It's worth. Nora bagi 3 setengah bintanggggggggggggg!!!


credit to myartis.com

That's all. Thank you for reading :)

Thursday, June 19, 2014

# Langit Mula Runtuh (When Sky Fallen)

Oh dear! I've left my blog almost half in year! Gosh! What hectic life I'd went through day by day. Well, now I come back. First thing is I customize my blog to look new, simple and pretty. Some stories I will write in here but depend on my time and my will. So now, I will post about my first stage with a new family, TAP Production collaboration with Bakawalee Penang in USM. Before this, I was with my old club, Proscenium Shahputra when I was in diploma at Kuantan, Pahang around 2009-2012.

The story is based on 18th-century French epistolary novel by Pierre Choderlos de Laclos, Les Liaisons Dangereuses and playwright by Christopher Hampton. You can directly go to Les Liaisons Dangereuses and Dangerous Liaisons for more information. Actually this is the first time it was written and played in Malay language and also performed by us. The script is written by our sifu, Yusof Bakar @ Dudok and its directed by Taufik Sallehudin (Apek). The setting is in late-60s and we're need to spoke in that era. We're training about 8 weeks only. The show was held on 30-31 May 2014 and I was chosen to be in first cast to started the first day show. Guess what I got for my role? Hehe so with my own credibility, my role is Laila (similar to Madame de Tourveil) but the script already edited according to our culture and religion (means all the sex scenes based on the original play need to be cutted out).

Role's changing name:

Marquise de Merteuil = Suraya
Vicomte de Valmont = Razif
Madame de Tourveil = Laila
Cecile de Volanges = Hana
Madame de Volanges = Maria
Chevalier Raphael Danceny = Mohsin

extra :

3 Gangsters


Here, I post some scenes from Langit Mula Runtuh show. I tried to post them according scene by scene but it seems not really much I have here. Nevermind, just enjoyed the pictures. All the photos are credited to Yusof Bakar and edited by me.



First Day Show

Suraya asked Razif to corrupted Maria's daughter, Hana because she'd revenge to her recent lover, Hj Razali by having a virgin as his wife soon 

Laila in mourning mood for her beloved late husband due to ship sank

 Maria with her daughter, Hana came to gave condolence to Laila

Hana was introduced by her mother

Hana refused to be married with Hj Razali and Maria was upset

Hana is teasing Cikgu Mohsin (teacher)

Cikgu Mohsin read a poem from Chairil Anwar's poem for Hana

Both of them in love

Suraya was trying to incite Razif because he can never get Laila's love and they're betting to each other included Laila as a wager

Laila, a lonely widower who loves to read

Razif was trying to seduced Laila and fall in love with her eventually but Laila refused due to his reputation as a playboy

Razif came back to get her heart but Laila refused again

a moment when Laila read love letter from Razif and slowly give her hearts to him

 Razif and a gangster's leader

Razif actually complotted with gangsters as the last way to get Laila's love

 
Maria was angry when she saw some love letters between Hana and Cikgu Mohsin

Maria insulted Cikgu Mohsin as a man who wants her money 

Razif deflowered Hana as Suraya's wish


Suraya asked Razif to dumped Laila according to their deal

Razif forced himself to revealed the truth to Laila that she's only a wager and tried to hide his true love instead. Laila feels cheated and hate him

Suraya was trying to incited Mohsin about Hana's deflowered because she's in a war with Razif

Mohsin confronted with Razif and Razif told about Suraya's true intention


Here, I posted Cast 1 and Cast 2:

 Suraya

 Razif

Laila

Hana

Maria

 Mohsin

Gangsters

 The Casts

Taufiq Sallehuddin (Apek), our generous director




Till we meet again guys... muchos <3 p="">

That's all for the post.



Wednesday, June 18, 2014

# They Come They Go

I was walked this route long time limitless,
I looked tired and meaningless,
Tears and thorns are my loyal friends,
My heart blew like sands

They come they go,
They look me like an angel,
Sadness and burdens
I carry their's for their happiness

They come they go,
My wings are broken
Now I left alone with self burdens
They go and go

This heavy pains,
This bloody tears,
This broken wings,
This burdens,
I go and go nowhere
   
                             (Amy Yahaya)


I am a loner who have strong passions to live because I've my God to accompany me through hard life & hidden pains behind my smiles & laughs. Broken inside & need to acting properly that i'm okay in reality. Yes, this world is a stage. I cant make you love me. I am me. They all can leave or I leave because I still stay positive with my God.

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